Doubt

[Dennis J. Klinzing Sr.]

"The process iincorporates the whole person - head and heart, passion and logic, faith and doubt, challenge and mystery." That one sentence has bothered me ever since I read it. I read a little bit more in the book. Thought to myself that I reach out to my family to get some help on what I am reading, what I am experiencing. Instead of sharing in the excitement, I got just the opposite. I was doubted at every turn.
At the end of the conversation, I was telling God I need someone to talk to. God knew I was feeling the emotional blow. The awesome part was I got a phone call before I stopped talking to God. It was a very dear friend of mine from SC.
I am blessed enough to have Pastor Sue. She herself has gone through this processs shre he was able to share her experience. Pastor Sue was able to explain in different terms what doubt was about. I had not realized that I was already been doubting. I was dobuting when I first felt the call. I doubted again several times since then. I was doubting this afternoon, when my family was not sharing in my excitement, but instead questioned (doubted) my calling.
When I read doubt, I understood it as doubting God. I should not have been so narrow sighted as in thinking one can only doubt God. I was doubting myself. Who am I to question what God is doing in my life? As His children aren't we supposed to just simply trust and follow?
Another aspect that I am gaining insight in is what my challenge is. Surprisingly my challenge or at least one of my many challenges has already started. I just now need to handle this challenge correctly. As I sit here any type, I had another reflection. I have been challenged all week.