Better Questions Blog - If You Wanted Me

[Nate Porter]

All right, no videos out there for this one so you'll have to track down the song yourself if you want to hear, but this is my current challenge from Todd Agnew (If You Wanted Me, from Better Questions):

I'll admit I'm glad we're not disciples
Out on a lake paralyzed with fright
'Cause I'm afraid I might have laughed at Peter
Until he stepped into that stormy night

If You wanted me to walk on water
Why'd You make this solid ground seem so right?

I'll admit I'm glad I'm not King David
Ruling over everything I see
'Cause I think I've fallen for more than Bathsheba
Your creation's a temptation for me

If You wanted me to love You only
Why'd you make the moonlight sparkle in her eyes?

I'll admit I'm glad I'm not John the Baptist
In a jail cell waiting for my day to die
'Cause at least down here I know what we're chasing
And it's hard to trust Your dreams are so much better than mine

If You wanted me to die to myself
Why'd You make me fall so deeply in love with life?

If You wanted me to surrender
Why'd You make these hands able to hold on so tight?

If You wanted me to be like You
Why'd You make me like me?


It doesn't matter whether something's malicious, lazy, forgetful, whatever; there are always things that make me ask these questions. Thankfully, just about every good example in the Old Testament and New is also a bad one, and that provides some comfort. But comfort or no, it's hard to deal every day with just how sinful I am.

How do we reconcile the deep love of the world and our attachment to "every weight and the sin that clings so closely" (Heb 12:1) to be like him? Or do we? Can we be more like him and less like us?

[Nate Porter]

Case in point: this morning's status message "#fail Rrr, made everything hard as possible to get kids to doctor: hid keys, lost shoes, no laundry, no bkfst! & forgot spiritual direction"